Sickness comes on horseback but departs on foot. ~Dutch Proverb

Well, I have now lived through the first full week of all four of my kids being in school all day long. I've imagined how I'd use the time--following Flylady with dedication, writing a couple of hours each day on my book, taking care of my calling, among other things. Then the week comes and this how it has gone.

Monday--I had quite a sore throat and stuffy head, but I did Flylady and worked on my book.

Tuesday--The sore throat was worse, the stuffy head was hurting so badly, and my voice was going, but I did Flylady and I wrote.

Wednesday--I was so miserable, I didn't do Flylady and I didn't write.

Thursday--I went to the doctor and learned I had bronchitis and strep throat. I didn't do Flylady and I didn't write.

Friday--I didn't do Flylady and I didn't write.

It has been a very successful week, as you can see. It never seems to fail. When I make a serious goal of some kind, I am thrown off the tracks, often by something over which I have no control. In my disappointment at not fulfilling my goal this week, I realized that I need to recognize the source of my self brow-beating. Satan wants me to give up on the goals. I wonder if Satan is capable of being behind the sickness this week that threw me off course.

Anyway, tonight I'm resolving not to let thoughts of disappointment and discouragement sway me from my goals. I want to have a clean and organized home and I've found Flylady to be the best way for someone like me to fulfill that goal. I want to be published, and I know the only way to do that is to produce and send out material to publishers. So next week, I will do better and instead of getting discouraged if I stumble, I'll pick myself up and continue. My expectation shouldn't be perfection--it should be improvement.

I wish I wasn't such an all or nothing person. I need to learn to do my best, and even if it isn't perfect, if it's my best, I need to be happy with that.

So here are the ramblings of a medicated person. I don't know if they make sense. Maybe tomorrow, I'll read this and take it off the blog because of incomprehensibility. But in the meantime, my goal is to do my best and not let thoughts of discouragement get to me. Next week will be better!